breaking a pretence

Thursday, June 11, 2009 6:56 AM

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHH. im hurting all over. aches and muscle cramps and bone pain (!!) ARH. back from 3-day misterr kajiyama camp. ps. non-residential

nice thingy at the end of show :D

anw, many things happened; too lazy to blog. just realised tht i've been missing alot on class stuff and studies including h/w and lessons. damn it. also my social life-GONE. i practically have no life. oh and i sounded like a FREAKING MOM to moley when i told him to learn the songs. SHIT. what am i turning into? argh.

sigh. people should try stoning sometimes.i stone when i have nth to do at home. i usually realise my mistakes, whatever i did, whatever has happened to me and whatever i've lost during stoning. hahah(: that includes having a reason to smile-lost them;lost them all.

someone keeps asking me who i like and says that he/she actually knows. bt the truth is: ive lost feelings for the person i actually like. its gone, over. its amazing how waiting for too long can change the way you feel, act and talk to them. its scary how waiting for too long can leave you so depressed and your overall outcome of life--sadness. dont deny it, but we do compare our lifes with others' and realise how sad yours is . then you start to wish you had his/her life :/ and realise now, everythings gone, faded away and left you all alone with nothing inscripted within you.

~not so much of a good feeling actually.